Friday, August 04, 2006
RANT 2!
I feel totally sad and upset, nervous, angry, excited... You name it I've felt it today.
Tonight we are drving up to Portland, and then on to Seattle for a wedding. The last few days leading up to our trip has been quite eventful. To start things off- it's that time of the month, which makes any stressful situation that much worse and any non-stressful situation a breeding ground for freak outs.
Right now I am totally pissed with Dan. He is setting up a TV he just bought froma friend instead of packing for our wedding adventure. Yesterday I was pissed because we were headed up to Seattle, 5 hours from home, with no place to stay yet plans of staying in Seattle over night. Wednesday I was pissed because he didn't have his breaks fixed. Yesterday I was pissed because he has failed again at getting his breaks fixed. Today at lunch? The same problem. Finally he took the damned car to Les Schwab instead of waiting for friends to call him back. That put him out 200 bucks.
I am also pissed because earlier I asked him to water my plants before he goes- I will not be back to the apartment before we hit the road. He said ok. Just now I asked him what he'll be doing when he gets home and all he said was packing. I reminded him to water the plants and he told me to stop testing him. If I remind him constantly about doing something like paying his cell phone bill or calling his family he gets pissed and says I nag him. If I don't nag and try to gently remind I am testing. What other freaking options do I have left? Well of course I can completely not worry about Daniel's crap, but it's not only Dan's crap b/c somehow it all ends up back on my plate anyway.
The worst part of today is that we are giving our friend Tom a ride home on our way, which means a 30 minute stop on a two-and-a-half-hour trip. It's not a stop I really want to make and it's not a ride I really want to give, but I can't say no b/c Tom's a great guy. I just feel like everything is spiralling out of control. I have this feeling just about every day of my life, but it gets pretty bad when I travel or I've looked at a credit card balance or when I realize I have to take out a 12,000 loan from a bank because the government caps how much one person can take our for undergrad loans. WTF am I going to do? And now that we are giving Tom a ride I am not going to have a chance to talk to Dan about everything that is upsetting me, which means I have to bottle it up, and that makes me want to explode and break something!
Everytime something happens, be it me freaking out about not having a place for us to stay or him not calling when he ends up being two hours late, I feel like things do not REALLY get worked out. Sure the situation passed, but no commitment is made to try harder. Nothing changes, and a month later we're back at it for the same old stuff. It drives me BAT SHIT!
The good news, Dan will be quitting his smoking habit at the end of the summer. Thus he will actually have money to help with the bills. At least he'd better.
So right now, boys and money are my problems. What other problem can a girl have? Really?
Tonight we are drving up to Portland, and then on to Seattle for a wedding. The last few days leading up to our trip has been quite eventful. To start things off- it's that time of the month, which makes any stressful situation that much worse and any non-stressful situation a breeding ground for freak outs.
Right now I am totally pissed with Dan. He is setting up a TV he just bought froma friend instead of packing for our wedding adventure. Yesterday I was pissed because we were headed up to Seattle, 5 hours from home, with no place to stay yet plans of staying in Seattle over night. Wednesday I was pissed because he didn't have his breaks fixed. Yesterday I was pissed because he has failed again at getting his breaks fixed. Today at lunch? The same problem. Finally he took the damned car to Les Schwab instead of waiting for friends to call him back. That put him out 200 bucks.
I am also pissed because earlier I asked him to water my plants before he goes- I will not be back to the apartment before we hit the road. He said ok. Just now I asked him what he'll be doing when he gets home and all he said was packing. I reminded him to water the plants and he told me to stop testing him. If I remind him constantly about doing something like paying his cell phone bill or calling his family he gets pissed and says I nag him. If I don't nag and try to gently remind I am testing. What other freaking options do I have left? Well of course I can completely not worry about Daniel's crap, but it's not only Dan's crap b/c somehow it all ends up back on my plate anyway.
The worst part of today is that we are giving our friend Tom a ride home on our way, which means a 30 minute stop on a two-and-a-half-hour trip. It's not a stop I really want to make and it's not a ride I really want to give, but I can't say no b/c Tom's a great guy. I just feel like everything is spiralling out of control. I have this feeling just about every day of my life, but it gets pretty bad when I travel or I've looked at a credit card balance or when I realize I have to take out a 12,000 loan from a bank because the government caps how much one person can take our for undergrad loans. WTF am I going to do? And now that we are giving Tom a ride I am not going to have a chance to talk to Dan about everything that is upsetting me, which means I have to bottle it up, and that makes me want to explode and break something!
Everytime something happens, be it me freaking out about not having a place for us to stay or him not calling when he ends up being two hours late, I feel like things do not REALLY get worked out. Sure the situation passed, but no commitment is made to try harder. Nothing changes, and a month later we're back at it for the same old stuff. It drives me BAT SHIT!
The good news, Dan will be quitting his smoking habit at the end of the summer. Thus he will actually have money to help with the bills. At least he'd better.
So right now, boys and money are my problems. What other problem can a girl have? Really?
// posted by Angela @ 9:35 PM 
